Some things I don’t have to worry about…
I answered the phone the other day and an unfamiliar female voice asked for my husband by first name. I told her he wasn’t home and she opted not to leave a message. End of conversation. Some wives may have given the identity of the caller a bit more thought than I did. But since I’m married to a gay guy, females aren’t my enemy.
So what don’t I have to worry about in this marriage? Like the strange female calling for my husband. No suspicions there. Not a second thought about who she was, or why she may be trying to reach him. My only thoughts for those next few moments were about the other things that don’t generate a single worry in this union.
What do I look like in the morning? (Or for that matter any time of the day or night). Do I look fat in this? Do I look attractive today? Does he like my new perfume? Outfit? Dinner I cooked?
In an odd way, it’s kind of freeing not to have to make any effort to catch his attention. But, I’m beginning to realize that I need to be careful and not totally give up on my appearance and self-respect. One day, I will be free of this entanglement and may just want to jump back into the deep end of the dating pool.
But for now, I’ll let the phone ring off the hook with lady callers and not be bothered at all.
